I decided to stop (give up on) the fasting. It had no effects other than making me cranky and always thinking this would be the month, so I'm done. The Lord knows my desires, so I leave it in his hands. Stinking tired of my body's wacko playing with me. I finally worked up the courage to ask dh if he'd try vitamins, so we know he nutritionally has all the building blocks and he said yes! What? I can hardly believe it, I never thought he'd go for it. But here I sit, not having even ordered them, because we are so jammed up financially that I'm trying to sell books I'm not reading, and buy as little food as possible, and work up knit designs that I hope will sell. It feels like the mortgage, real estate taxes, and car/home/boat/life insurance payments are drowning us right now. And heating season is here. Can you say 62 degrees F? So I can't afford $60 for a month's worth of 2 supplements for him. Which is really a minimum of $180 because sperm are produced over the course of 3 months, so it's supposed to take that long to see the effects.
Right now, I'm praying more in the way of, "Lord, we need money. A baby can wait, cuz that'd be $3500 out-of-pocket." Though I never stop hoping to get pregnant... the human mind can be a horrid crazy thing.
